Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Be Still

Be Still (Psalm 46:10)
(c) 2001 Holly L. Schmidtbleicher

BE STILL your anxious thoughts of mind;
BE STILL when answers you fail to find.
BE STILL impatient, questioning heart,
For I've held the answers from the start.

"Be still and KNOW..."
KNOW that every need I will provide;
KNOW that I will never leave your side.
KNOW that your times are in My hands,
As in your life I work to fulfill My plans.

"Be still and know that I AM..."
I AM He who sees your every tear;
I AM He who calms your deepest fear.
I AM He who gives peace within life's storms,
While those tempests I use to strengthen and form.

"Be still and know that I am GOD..."
GOD, who sent My only Son;
GOD Almighty, Omniscient One.
GOD, who loved you enough to die,
So trust Me, my child; stop asking why.

"BE STILL and KNOW that I AM GOD."

This is the desire of my be still, and to see God working everything out before me. I desire that every step I take and decision I make- big or small- would be directed by His Spirit.

Today I was literally out of breath at one point, my heart beating so fast... just running from one thing to another, and thinking about the things I had to do. I was forced to just sit down and do nothing. I felt like God was telling me, "Slow Down- RELAX!". How can I be still with two young boys? Lord, I know there is a way...please show me.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

In Your Presence

I just came back from our women's retreat in Leesburg, Virginia. It was the first time in years I got to get away without the kids for a personal retreat. Our retreat focused on eating the Word of God, receiving Holy Communion, spending time in prayer, and experiencing true fellowship. All of these topics are things I've learned about since I was a child, but as life gets busier and more distracting, my soul feels emptier as I unknowingly neglect feeding myself with these spiritual necessities.

I realized this weekend how much I need God's grace. He is the One who gives us the desire to pray, read His Word, and receive Him, and He is also the one who gives us the strength to do all of it. All of this so we can be in His Presence...the One place where we find fullness of joy. So what's our part? After this weekend, I realized that our part is simply to work on emptying ourselves and our lives so He can have room to come that we can hear Him when we read His word and not have a cluttered mind; so we can really feel the power of His Body and Blood inside of us and not quench its power; so we can feel His presence in our prayers and not be distracted by thinking of what we have to do next; and so we can wait on Him to provide us with true fellowship instead of hurrying to fill up our calenders with events to mask our loneliness.

I'm starting to "clean up". I deleted my Facebook application on my phone (hopefully that lasts!). I am going to resist the urge to busy my days with events for the kids and I. I am going to do all of these things and more, and then I will pray that Your presence finds a place in my heart and in my home.